Sunday, September 27, 2020

I'm back again and now I have something sorta ori for Youtube

Long long time ago, I posts some music vid at youtube, of course it got strike down as copyright. Then I decide to delete everythang and let my youtube bare for years and years. 

 Since the MCO, I decided to brave it again. I always been playing pc games but this time I decide to record myself play. So here is it! My pc games - gameplay on youtube.


The game title P.A.M.E.L.A. 



It is an indie game set in futuristic world that gone apocalyptic and full of zombielike creatures. This game vid will be first of many series of pc games that I'll will put on my youtube channel


P.A.M.E.L.A. gameplay - 01 Widow, Reaper and Shade | Malaysia (Malay/English) 


This vid is bilingual malay/english - but hardsub is in english

have fun watching

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Wednesday, February 12, 2020

I Don't Understand That Reference

This is my favourite quote. It is kinda like a motto at my blog lol! Who said it? Why he said this?

First of all he is Castiel - The Angel of the Lord from the Supernatural TV Series

This is how how he look like - Castiel and the actor :P

In what context this Castiel said it?

It is from episode 5.13 - The Song Remains The Same
(Also a title of Led Zeppelin song by the same name)

In this episode Anna (another angel) escape from heaven (because she's been notty angel so they put her in prison heaven), now she has escaped. She want to kill Sam so that all the apocalypse business will finish. So she decide to go back in time at 1978 before Sam was born and kill their mom - Mary Winchester.

Dean ask Castiel to take he and his brother back in time. So because Castiel has been a bit notty also, he is not indirect contact with Heaven Host, so no power recharge, and very hard to take passengers back in time.

SAM : Why nineteen seventy-eight? I wasn't even born yet.
CASTIEL: You won't be if she kills your parents.
SAM : What?

CASTIEL walks up to DEAN and SAM.

CASTIEL : Anna can't get to you because of me. So she's going after them.
DEAN : Take us back right now.

CASTIEL : And deliver you right to Anna? I should go alone.
DEAN : They're our parents. Cas, we're going.
CASTIE : It's not that easy.

CASTIEL walks a few steps away.

SAM : Why not?
CASTIEL : Time travel was difficult even with the powers of heaven at my disposal.
SAM : Which got cut off.

DEAN : So. what, you're like a Delorean without enough plutonium?
CASTIEL : I don't understand that reference. But I'm telling you, taking this trip, with passengers no less.

**Ok for those who also don't understand Dean's reference is about the Michael J. Fox's movie - Back to the future. Delorean is 'the car that can go back in time' and plutonium is its fuel.. somethime like that. So what Dean meant about Cas he is like a the car that does not have enough fuel. And Cas is an Angel who obviously not accustomed to human culture so he don't get the movie reference that Dean is referring

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Say Something..

After a long, long silence here I am back again. First I like to add something about my Supernatural fangirling. My Destiel is not dead in fact it kinda gone strong lol. So to dedicate this, here is the song and the music vid. 

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'll be the one, if you want me to.
Anywhere I would've followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I am feeling so small.
It was over my head
I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall.
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
Anywhere I would've followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I will swallow my pride.
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
And anywhere I would've followed you. Oh-oh-oh-oh
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Say something...  

Say Something
A Great Big World

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

This is why I like TV

Originally this gifs from

We are in Buckingham Palace, the very heart of the British Nation.
Sherlock Holmes, put your trousers on. 


This is a fanmade vid from the supernatural series. I love how this vidder add in the dialogue as well as the background song.

There has been a debate even in our religion if angels could fall.. I just found out, it's not strictly in other religion.. affairs of the heaven not ours to busy body LOL. Just enjoy the vid

Fanvid title : The burden of Choices

The song is Hello Night by  Zoë Keating
Trivia :
Zoë Keating (born February 2, 1972) is a Canadian-born cellist and composer based in San Francisco, California.

Freedom is a length of rope. God wants you to hang yourself with it.

Quotes used in the video:

Dean: I thought angels were supposed to be guardians.
Castiel: I'm not here to perch on your shoulder. Angels are warriors of God. I'm a soldier.

Anna: Perfect. Like a marble statue. Cold. No choice.

Dean: The angels - they don't care. I think maybe they just don't have the equipment to care. It seems like when they try it just...breaks them apart.

Anna: Choosing your own course of action - it's confusing. Terrifying.

Castiel: I don't know what to do. Please tell me what to do.
Anna: I'm sorry. It's time to think for yourself.

Dean: Help me, now. Please.
Castiel: I do that, we will all be hunted. We'll all be killed.

Hester: You have fallen in every way imaginable.

Dean: If there is anything worth dying for, this is it.

Hester: The very touch of you corrupts. When Castiel first laid a hand on you in Hell, he was lost!

Castiel: For the first time, I feel.

Crowley: What are you, Castiel? And what exactly are you willing to do?

Dean: What are you gonna do? Cas?
Castiel: I don't know. Isn't that amazing?

Monday, April 23, 2012

Far Encounter Of The Male Kind


It was more of a scary ride for me, because I was alone in a town where I do not have family support, living alone. He purposely get my name wrong to fish the right one from me. I was afraid that I was being stalk, my physical appearance is not popular among the men, but I do have an income they would like to trap.

Here is how the story goes.. suddenly I receive an unknown sms from a number that is not register to my mobile - In bold is the sms

"Askum" it says... 

Me being a good polite human answered "Maaf siapa ni? Saya tukar handphone baru, no awak saya takde" (Because its quite true, I change my old nokia 2780 to the cool Samsung Galaxy Ace and me the malas never get to transfer all the numbers of old phone to the new one.. so hence each time new numbers, I give them and excuse, owh your number is lost heh)

N then he answered "O ya ke awk. Erm tentu awak dah lupa sy ni"

Duh! No shit sherlock, are you 'effing' blind? Just answer my question la. Typical. So I have to repeat my question again 'Siapa ni?'

Then he answered 'Sy Mamat' - contoh nama la ahaks - standard sms slang malay kalau saya=sy

In my brain there's just ??? because I did not recognise the name anywhere in my past or present. I answered again 'Mamat? Kerja kat mana? Are you sure you have the right person? I don't think I know any Mamat.. pls refresh my memory"

"Minah, u ada acaunt facebook tak, apa nick u" he answered back

"Maaf saya bukan minah, salah orang kot" I answered

"O ya ke awak keja d pejabat xxx tu kan" (which is correct and that surprised me). Sory ya ganggu u. Klau awk nak tgk sy kat facebook Mamat bin Mamut"

I search and couldn't find any, there's prolly few Mamat bin Mamut, sometimes if that person did not set his FB profile searchable.. couldn't find it duh!

So I answered "Tak jumpa pun, where did we know each other? Masa Keje? (which is very unlikely because I would know if there is a Mamat) Universiti? Skolah menengah?"

And then he answered dum!dum!dum! "Sebenarnya u tak kenal I dan I yg nak kenal u, maaf bg u fikit tentang I

WTF???? Are you fooking nuts? This is NOT the way to start getting to know each other. Fooking Scary IMHO. So anyway I layan just curious to see where the hell he get mah phone numbah"Ok no problem blh berkenalan, btw nama saya Amirah bukan Minah (stupid idiots-in mah head). Kat mana dapat no saya ni?"

"Perempuan yang keje kat gerai Wak Labu sebelah pejabat you tu la"

Ok I will ask around kesahihan maklumat ni tomorrow because now if after office hours and I'ma going home.

We exchange more infos, age, but he never answered what he really did for a living which kinda annoy me. And then he call me that evening.. just to hear mah voice kot.. to certain that I was female? I could be a transgendered or sound like Chris Colfer you never really know Ima woman, stupid

Well in that phone conversation all I sum up was he couldn't even produce the name of the person who gave him my phone number.. the way he answered it vague and hesitant. Imagine, if you a matchmaker (the womanlah), you want to give a girl's phone number to a potential suitor lahkan.. wouldn't it you have to sit and talk over Teh Tarik with the guy, and have a heart to heart chat.. not just carelessly tossing the phone number around.. well if this is the case, the middle lady is also not to be trusted lah kan.

After the conversation we continue a little bit smsing, He did ask about if I was renting, did I drive a car, I didn't counter question because sometimes I like to see if the person would volunteer the infos, which he did. He only had a motor not car, and lives in a kampung like seting garden house with his mom kot, that is why I conclude he is not on par with me in terms of financial, I was a bit disappointed.  So sue me alright, its human nature to value the person who kinda 'courting' you 'sekufu' ke tak kan?

My psycho-analyse self started working.... He is establishing my financial status so it seems.
Is he a classic scheme like nigerians???  LOL malay nigerian style.

 We sms some more a bit about parents and other stuff and then as suddenly he disappear without saying goodbye or salam. So that the end of conversation for the nite.

The next day, I track down Warung Wak Labu sebelah my office tu so I ask around (as far as I remember I never give my number to anyone).The buat air girl agree with me, we never exchange phone number. The owner auntie said.. prolly these serkap jarang type who does this, she also kena, but there is this statement she said, layan je la, kan single malam bukan ada keje pun??? (At that time, I did not think any of it.. maybe is something, maybe is nothing)

He started smsing me, apologising sbb finish credit eh? Hello! I'm on prepaid as well, infact this phone numbah has been with me since 2000 and I never let it run out of credit. It shows he is using a secondary sorta disposable number and how untrustworthy this male kind is or maybe he is really low on the money side.. no matter.

I'm still not satisfied who gave him the number I asked again after I asked around warung Wak Labu "Siapa org tgh bg no fon sy kat awak?"

"Kan saya dah bg tau semalam"

"Org keje kat warung Wak Labu kata takder, cara awak jawab mcm awak tak kenal pun kakak tu, mcm no tepon sy ni kena lelong je"

"Nape u tak suka ka org rekemen I kenal ngan u"

(OMG!!! Un Effing believable!!! I would've pull out mah hair, how typical)
"Sy nak tau siapa, sbb mcm kita minta keje kena ada rujukan kan, jd bakal majikan akan tanya lah kat orang yang dirujuk tu" (How more Idjits can you get????)

"Tak pe la klau u tak nak I tak leh wat pe sy hormat keputusan u tp sy ikhlas nak kenal ngan u"

(God!!! Cas!! will you please smite this moron *angry face*)
"Sy memang jenis suka terus terang kalau tak puas hati sy akan tanya sampai puas hati dan sy akan nilai, tula sifat saya. Jadi sy nak tau siapa kakak tu? Blh sy sembang ngan dia"

And then.... he got scared! LOL! Look like I don't need Cas for smiting anymore
One pesky pest chased away

"Tak pe lah lupakan saja mungkin kita kenal tak lama tp sy happy sgt sembang ngan u"
(In my defense I thot he was ending it - lost in smsing LOL)

Ughh...??? duh! "Ok no problem bye" (Lalala skiping to Cas's arms in my fantasy land)

And I thot my life has finally found peace untill a few minutes later

"Sy ikhlasnak kwn ngan 'Ira' (He shortened my named that already short to a nickname that made me feel like I wanna wring his neck in which he uses it generously the night before, FYI my name is Amirah, ppl call me Mira for short, it sound better, but pls don't shortened it to 'Ira') tp wat masa ni biarlah sy pegang janji ngan org tu yg bg no fon u nanti akan sy ceritakan blh tak?"

Pulak??? And he kept sending few sms which I will never answered again...

The moral of this story.. why go so elaborate 'stories'. I can smell teh lie a mile away..If you watch Navy NCIS TV series, there is this no nonsense lead character name Gibbs. He is so badass ppl afraid to call him his first name, thus Gibbs stick (actually his first name is soo kampung lol Leroy Jethro, who the hell name their kid Leroy Jethro hehehe). Anyway he had 50 rules and never wrote them and he expect his underlings to remember them all.. There is this one rule I like to add this 'Mamat' situation - Rule number seven: Always be specific when you lie

IF I layan his sms with another sarkas sms, I know the typical male kind outcome would be like : Eleh you think you so damn hot/goodlooking whatever, who wants you anyway. FYI mister male kind, I might not be as pretty as the girl next door (I know this.. girl next door is better looking than I) BUT I am a human being and deserve, if you have any intention of courtship, to be courted with RESPECT AND HONESTY. Why go all the way with this cock and bull story anyway? 

From all our sms the night before, we have nothing in common it seems. He hasn't watched TV for sometime and only interest in Bola. I was a kaki wayang esp action pack english ones. He did offer me at one time - to go to Tg Dawai kononnya nak shopping stuff to give to my family LOL. Kununnya nak first date/out going kat Tg Dawai??? Sorry not my cup of tea, anyway my parents are on salt and cholesterol watch, so they don't even want any salted fish or anchovies and stuff alike. We'll be like duck talking to chicken... hmm it's true 'sekufu' is important.

Word of wise : Never start a friendship/relationship with lies and secrecy it will not lead to anything good.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

At The End of The Day It Is Not About Love

I love this episode 2.05 of Being Human US version. It's deals with 'addiction' in any form. For Vampy Aidan is blood, for Josh is his wolf form and Sally is life. At end of the day is not about love - is just what makes you feel good

Episode monologue

At the end of the day, all any of us wants is to feel good. And wether it's a long wet kiss on the dark night or a needle in the arm, it will gnaw at you until you give in- until you let yourself feel good again. And there is nothing esle in the world that feels better than giving in to your inner monster. Every monster has their own version of addiction, it's written into our own nature. We need the blood, the strength, the power. But the curse of those of us with darker urges, is that when we let the cravings inside us take over, someone else pays the price. And when a monster sets sail for rock-bottom, there's no telling what destruction he'll leave in his wake 
- Aidan McCollin

I love the ending where Aidan meet Henry (his vampy childe) again. The background song make the mood feel like it is a love story lol.. When for a vampire story it does feels like that 

Aidan and Henry had some sort of a fall out back in the 1930's because of Suren (a sort of vampire princess). Aidan took an interest of her because he is her bodyguard/escort at that time. But before he make a move Henry was faster. It did angered Aidan to the point he wanted to stake Henry but Suren stop him. And then Henry continue sleeping with other human woman behind Suren's back, disregarding of Aidan's warning.

So classic but in a twisted vampy way. Daddy and son after the same girl but umm.. Daddy and son also have some UST as well lol! When you dwell upon Henry is like a child having a tantrum coz Daddy wants to find some other girl hehehe

Gifs source -

Ouch! Daddy don't love me anymore - Ima gonna pout

Another arguement of Aidan and Henry 
 All gif source is from

One night Suren found out and in her rage she kill the woman in front of other people. This force her 'Mother' to put the hotel into 'lockdown' and order all the vampys to kill the other humans. Before the attack start, Aidan rejected Henry and then told him to leave Boston (making Henry as his childe an orphan). Mother than 'ground' (buried her) Suren for 80 years as her  punishment

 Aidan rejected Henry because of his disloyal to Suren..
Present time, Mother orders Aidan to dig Suren up. She then orders Suren to head Boston and Aidan became her second. After Suren successfully seducing Aidan to drink life again, they got together. Mother came and gave them a warning that they are slacking. Aidan and Suren head out to clean Bishop's orphaned mess. And Bishop's old place Aidan found Henry again but he decide to hide this from Suren.

The background song where Aidan meet Henry feels like a love song lol! The connection in that scene where Aidan stood infront of Bishop's table and saw him sitting there (Bishop is his vampy daddy but Aidan kill him) and then he met his child Henry again.. *sigh*

Aidan looking at Bishop's empty chair 

Aidan having Bishop flashback

Aidan meets Henry again

 My soul has flown and I am what is left I am skin and bones 
- David J. Roch "Skin And Bones"

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